When I was a lot younger, I remember always wanting to play on the see-saw. But nobody else would join me. So I played on the next best toy of the playground by myself, the swing. I love going on the swing, even today, I’ll go play on the swings once in a while by myself. When I was a kid, I’d be on the swings for hours until I had a really bad headache.
Secretly, I was always jealous of the other kids playing on the see-saws.
We all have this desire inside of us for companionship. Sometimes this companion becomes your spouse. Other times, the companionship’s torn apart because somebody had to move away. And if you really think about it, nobody ever wants to be all alone. Yeah sure, sometimes solitude’s nice, but we all have this part inside of us that desires a friend. This companion might be a sister or a brother, maybe a cousin, or another kid in the neighborhood or even at school.
This person is usually your confidant, support, and advisor for many various issues you face in life, usually this is mutual between the two of you.
It’s a depressing picture to see only one kid trying to play on a see-saw. Because I always see myself there, alone.
To be honest, I’m an awkward person (if you haven’t noticed yet, haha). I’m socially awkward, because, one, I’m shy, and b, I have trust issues. Sometime I come off as a bit intimidating, or so I think. That’s probably the best conclusion I can come up with, unless people really don’t like me for some reason. But anyway…
I think what I’m getting at is that I’m hungry for a companion. Someone I can have fun with, go on adventures and explore with. Someone I can have an intelligent conversations and good discussions with. Someone who I can learn from and who can learn from me. Someone who I can feel comfortable with, and confide in, and trust.
I’m not afraid of being alone. I’m just tired of being ignored and unwanted.
